Jehova Jireh!

i recently got out of one of the hardest sitiuations i ever had in my life..
but because of God's overflowing and infinite grace i was rescued from that deep pit!

last 2 weeks ago i had struggles with my daily routines, i had irregular sleeping habits which put me to a really bad condition with regards to my performance in school... i slept most of the time during our class periods.. i had difficulty focussing on the discussion..
although i learned enough compared to my classmates, they had better scores than me during tests because i loose concentration because of my lack of sleep, i always get mistakes with the negative signs, which my teacher would unconsiderately mark them as wrong answers..
definitely when my teacher gave us ou class standing for midterm, i had a failing mark..

which made me think of what our pastor had preached that sunday before i experienced tremendous failures in academics.. it was a story from the bible which talks on how sometimes God puts you into a situation where you cant find open doors but walls that doom you, it is by then that God will reveal his saving grace to us, and how personal could he be when he stretches his hand from nowhere and provides us with the things we need in life..

God is indeed our Jehivah Jireh!

Everybody leaves me..

well, may is the month of leaving..
so much losing..
first our pastor(and his family), then one of my dearest friendsm, raf..
everybody leaves..
and certainly i would be left alone..

this is the worst, i would want to feel..

..somwhere between birth and death..

well i cant find the best words to describe life.. well try to think about the things that i just thought about while writing this post.. well i realized that life is never certain, we could live longger lives, we could also live as short as a minute..

well nothing is definite, all we can do is talk about it, but we are never sure if tomorrow we could still talk about anything at all..

life is all we have, wether in sorrow, pain, joy, tears, laughter, victory or everything.. we may loose everything at all, but not so until we loose our very life..

well as long as we still have it, make use of it like it should never be wasted..