this is my anger..

haha.. japeth just said the worst words to me today..

it was 7:20 pm in the evening, japeth- a 1st year nursing student of DMSF Hospital was in a rush to use unit 2 of the techready cafe. she yelled at me saying that she'd be using the computer for only thirty minutes. i was stunned for a few seconds hearing her loud voice. i couldnt think for awhile, i remember the first day i met her. she was completely different at that moment. in that moment i was thinking of the perfect reason for that sudden burst of emotion. maybe i have done something wrong against her, or maybe not.

at 11:25 pm in the evening she signed in again on unit 2, in my curiosity i tried to figure out what may have caused her sudden out burst of emotion. i looked at her straightly in her eyes while she concentrately surfing nothing over the interenet. i asked her boldly what is wrong with you? she told me there was nothing wrong. so i chose not to ask her anything about that again. i continued typing this blog. but finaly she gave me her soothing smile after i have seen her open a youtube flick on a primetime tele serye shown at abscbn chanel.

i dont really know what could happen next. hopefully wed be friends again.. hehe..

Dolphins at Philippine Bay.

About a year ago i think, i heard of the news in japan that there was this 50 million year old sea creature that emerged from the deep sea of japan to one of the shores in japan. Days after that incident happened, another unknown creature appeared the same way that this 50 million year old creature did. It seemed to me that the same thing is happening here in the Philippines now wherein theres this 300 to 500 dolphins that mysteriously heading to the shallow shores of Manila bay. According to the news there is still no enough findings on what has caused these 300 to 500 dolphins to come into the bay.

Although there were efforts to rescue and bring them back to deep sea, there have already been reports that some of these dolphins have died. Autopsy have been conducted already to the dead dolphins, thus the results of the autopsy are still awaited. Hopefully the results may give way to solve the mysterious appearance of these 300 to 500 dolphins.

what do i want

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lz266s634N8&feature=related... this links you to a very boring song. haha.

i had nothing to do. it seemed that the usb still doesnt work.
i hope tomorrow i could find a way to fix them.

Another morning for work.

Time is running so fast.. The deadlines we had set are coming, perhaps most of it we have gone thru. Our accomplishments to me are not that satisfying. There is always the remedy, but it is better if we had done things according to plan.

But i started my day right. Doing the must to do things first. I know eventualy i could master my routine and do these things without my notebook. It feels ok to forget about my traumatic experiences with some women i have known. Good thing i still have friends to talk to anytime i needed one.

Thanks to kaz.. hehe. u just made me smile today. hehe.. i hope you could read this one.. hehe..
stop talking to me in japanese..

the newspaper guy.

hehe.. we(techready team) just had a meeting with a news writer from inquirer. he came to the office to check out our project(techready). its cool to have him visit our office as he said he will be writing some stories on how we got into this project. hehe. the guy was actualy the same folk who wrote about oliver's cool experience in winning in the rmaf essay writing competition. oliver just won a desktop computer and cash worth 50k.

haha. it was great coincedence that just after a meeting with mr. dan backus, instantly we had found a person to actualy help us into publicity that we needed. in the meeting with dan baccus we talked about the posibility of having the media help us to publicize and promote about what the project is all about and on how the mynd tech business consultancy(dan's company) could go into partnership and eventualy help the filipino youth.

i am excited about this, hopefully sooner we will get to have the details that this newspaper guy wanted us to prepare.

better than the usual.

i feel better now. last night was a total frustration. good thing i had kuya jay to listen to my annoying groaning voice. i hated the world for what has happened to many of my friends. i loved them but i cant do anything about it anymore. they had every way to back out from the situations they got into it is their choice that lead them to that.

anyways its lia's birthday. i still miss her. i still dont understand why. i guess airsupply was right, first love never dies.. hehe.. corny.. but anyways, mission accomplished, i greeted her at facebook. i wanted to greet her at multiply, but the problem is i dont really know how to get things done in my multiply account. hehe.. but ill try.

and going back to that feeling.. hehe.. i am over it.. time to do the right things.. i want a car before the end of march. or on my birthday. i wish i could make this deal go on track. and perhaps buy myself a car.. hehe..

i finding a way to buy myself a car, was my way of getting over with them.. hehe.. yeah.. they broke my heart like i really had them.

thats it for today. i still miss lia. God Bless her.. hehe..

True Love Waits.

I cant imagine how so many people wasted the most valuable gift anyone could give to their real partners in life. When i say real partners, its the bond created spiritually through marriage-the ultimate bond-bond declared not only on earth but in heaven. Believe me its acknowledge here and in heaven..

I have been erroneously attached to a friend lately and what hurts me most is not that i felt rejected for trying to work things out with her, but hearing from a friend that she lost herself. Mehn! I wish i had every power to turn back time. Its not because i regretted not being the first but the idea that she gave it all up that easily.

I am blaming the world for this. It hurts to hear friends being used up. It is not because of love that someone just gave herself/himself up but it is what the world taught him/her to understand. It is not how they really feel, but it is what they see and what they thought was right to do. We end up being confused to what is really right.

Fuck that media! They made a mess out of so many lives already. The media taught us that to love is to fuck up! Media taught us to lie and waste ourselves, it has taught us to become evil when we were really not.

Honestly, i have been engaged to so many situations that i could have used up anyone but Mehn! i loved my friends so much that i cant afford to steal away the best gift they could have given to their future spouses. Mehn! The world is sick, and i am sick of it.

I wish they had the same thought as mine. I wish they loved themselves rightfully, i wish i had the chance to change her mind about it before it happened. I wish it never happened.