Good morning!

Few more days to go and it would be christmas once again. I dont really know what i feel now. I dont know why i am not too excited about it, not like when i was younger that i always look forward to this event of the year. I dont seem to find my happiness in christmas anymore. I dont know what makes me happy now. This is one thing i learned in the past few days that i have been exploiting the happiness i needed in my life. I think i have exploited happiness too much that i cant find the ultimate happiness anymore.

but i look forward for our batch reunion, and the samal getaway that we will be doing with kenneth martin and rafael, and i guess a few chick.. hehe..

loving and addiction..

Fuck Love, i never had something like that.. I dont care anyways. A few buckets of beer and being sober will make me feel good at the time or even longger. I can get over with it anytime i want to.

I entitled this one as loving and addiction as i noticed this 2 things are almost the same. Just like what i just said, i can always say i can get over with it but every time, the feeling gets back into you, and all the more again you say i can get over with it. Addiction in some sense is like that, i always say i can get over with anything im addicted to. Like this Facebook addiction that i have right now. I know it wastes a lot of my time, and i know when its already too much for me, I know if i had to stop or not, but you i just cant stop myself from doing it. Like pornography, i know its all eating me up, that it always lead me to mariang palad, and i know it will only elaborate to myself how depressed i am. BUt fuck id rather do it than bother my self to think i dont have her.

missing the old days

yeah,, im missing the old days.. i used to spend my lonely days finding a quiet place at school just to ponder and think about a lot of things.. back then i had so much time to waste.. im already 23 feeling like i dont want to waste time anymore.. i feel like i have done so little in my time.. thanks to the background music who gave me the idea that i should write something about what i feel right now.. hays.. i dont know if i just feel like this because i miss someone or i just feel that i have lost everything after the wrong things i did in my life.. hays.. but i guess that was both..
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all around the world statues crumble for me.. i just wana fly.. put your arms around me baby.. that song reminds me of her.. hays.. damn.. higschool memmories kill me now.. music brings a lot of memmories men.. hays..

hays..

well its almost 4am, feeling lonely in a big world. i know i made a lot of mistakes in life and i may say it feels bad to not only realize that youve made a mistake the past month but also to realize that i have been doing a lot of mistakes my entire life. i want to change my self and make good on what life has in stake for me right now. i am already 23 and im feeling my life is coming to waste. to think im 23 and i havent finished college yet and have not accomplished anything real yet in my whole life. i didnt really had a real girlfriend. shit! haha..

the reason i am awake right now is that i really so lonely on the inside that i wanted to talk to some real people. but i dont think i can find someone real to talk to tonight. i feel like im in a deep shit and doomed. after all the mishaps that happened. it doesnt make me sleep for over 3 nights now. i wonder what happens on monday when i talk to this selfish kind of people crap. hays..

i have work on monday and i might probably prepare myself for this. its a sales account so i really need to step up on my performance. i will doing sales, i have no idea yet on how hard this account will be going, but definitely it needs a lot of work out to prepare myself for it.

i miss a lot of people right now. i miss her, miss him, and miss them.. oh well thats life.. sometimes we need to be alone to think for a lot of things that needs to be thought about. the thing is there is some things that id rather not think about, like what the horrific news last week when i talked with that Gahol. selfish crap.. they didnt even bother to find my number.

oh well.. God will make a way though. I wish God would still be on my side even if i failed him a lot of times.. hopeless wish.. but GOd makes miracles though. hays..

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earning through adsense

haha. i never thought earning through adsense is quite exciting. My personal blog doesnt really get good enough traffice for someone to click my ads. BUt anyways it has been 3 days since we started earning through my adsense. hehe. Now i have accumulated $4.59 already. I think this is quite cool, to think it has only been 3 days yet. Yeah!

I guess i need to optimize the site to earn fast through the internet.
try this link. www.workfromhomephilippines.com

just attended the bloggers meeting.

Its 1:27 am here. Just got back from the bloggers meeting at Grand Regal Hotel at Sasa, Davao City. It is actualy my second time to be there at that same event. The first time was at the same venue but only the bloggers who attended are more of the higher profile pipz. I noticed that there are more new faces than those of those who attended last year.
I dont know why but i have this strong feeling that this event may not be done again next year. I am not really hoping for that to happen as I just do feel some strange gestures from the organizers of this event.
The whole event was enjoyable though, despite of the losses that we have experienced in the games at the casino. We met new people, especially Aiza. The beer is good and cold. The wine just like last year ran out just before the last speaker uttered his last words.
But anyways, thanks to pagcor for the freebies and the coupons, and the nice looking receptionists. Thanks to Ms. Janet Toral for the idea of promoting ecommerce in the Philippines.